My Driving Love

As you all know *If you don't then you haven't met me since God knows when*

I, Azizul is a self addicted load horse of a Racer

I epicly love the idea of driving a car on the edge

I just love when you that close to edge and you've gone through it

I love that inner blend between man and machine

What the hell?

When did I became so Zen like?

meh nevermind

I really do all the above

There was so many racing games I had

I was blinded by the graphics of GRID

I was scared by driving in Colin McRae:DiRT

I was scared because its one of those games where

You have to driving in the forest with trees a foot away

from your car while you're doing like 200kph around there?

Its called rallying so It is what it is

Go YouTube Rallying

I was amazed by the tunability of Need For Speed

but none have put such an impact such to my life

as Gran Turismo

It was in my memory,

The 1st racing game when I had for my little PSOne

I didn't remember how much time I spent playing the

game when I was 4 years old

I kept crashing into EVERYTHING at that time so I didn't

know what I was doing with that controller

2nd came Gran Turismo 2

I was 6 that time

After playing GT1 all this time

I started to understand how does a car works =D

then Gran Turismo 3

came out for the PS2

I begged my dad for a PS2 just to play Gran Turismo 3

I wished it for every single day when I was 8

When I got the PS2, I immediately bought GT3

It was all good =D

After Gran Turismo 3

I thought that I was good in driving =D

But I was so wrong

I, one day decided to go the go-kart track for once

I never did thought how hard is it to drive something for a change

Changing from a controller to a steering wheel makes all the difference

It took me so long just to be confident with the steering wheel

but I was damn sure I was flooring the accelator pedal like a mad man

But I can't do anything about it

or its just maybe I was 8 that time =D

So every single day I waste it on Gran Turismo

Trying to be the best =D

but soon after..

There was no one to race with

I raced with my bros

my friends

my cousins

my neighbours

There was practically no one to race with

so I waited

Then came along one of the games I so dearly wait

I've waited 4 years just for this game

then I was 8

I was 12 when Gran Turismo 4 finally came out

this time

with the new psyhics engine

It felt ever so harder/realistic to get that perfect lap

out of every car I drive in Gran Turismo

This time I and my drives more real to life

My dad sent me one of the most influental things of my gaming life

He gave me a steering wheel

Oh how I loved that steering wheel

Since it hace force feedback

*Which means it mimics the roughness of the road the feel of the road*

I can now feel the car in the bends

I can react by feeling the car now

not by look at the car and guessing when will it lose grip

Every single bump, every single stone of gravel and even single

rumble strip

I can feel it

I felt so powerful with that steering wheel with me

I felt it so much until I beat 20 people in Gran Turismo

in this Gran Turismo party

I beaten so many people until some didn't want to even

dare to drive with me =D

but,

I didn't won anything because I was disqualified

I was disqualified because I was too young

Then the most evil thing that could happen to any PS2 owner happen to me

When I was playing

I was playing F1 2006

I was racing our ever so lovely Sepang Circuit

on the very last lap of the 56 lap race

My PS2

blown up

right in front of me

I was sad like any other person would

but the sadness was amplified

It was amplified by the fact that I most likely can't play my PS2

ever again

It was sad

I didn't had the chance to fix it

Soon I moved on to the PC realm

but the Racing games in the PC
didn't satisfied me like what Gran Turismo did

This is indeed a sad chapter of my life

Like Saint Augustine have said

"Its better to have Loved and Lost rather than

To have never Loved at all"

R.I.P Azizul's PS2 2007